What Father Told Me Today

Something beautiful happened to me today.

It is not something I can force. It is not something that happens all the time in the same way. And I am not writing this to convince anyone whether it is true or not true. I am simply sharing my experience as I lived it.

Father is the name I use for the presence of the Source, what many would call God, as I experience Him in me.

I have known this presence all my life, but after 2019 it became much stronger. During those years, Father would come often in a way I could feel very clearly, as a distinct presence: loving, wise, peaceful, reassuring. Lately, He has been coming less in that recognizable way. Not because He is absent, but because more and more I have been learning to experience Him in unity rather than in duality, not as if He is there and I am here, but as a presence not separate from me.

Still, when He comes in that familiar way, I recognize it immediately.

This morning I woke up feeling clear and peaceful. I came downstairs, played a little with the cat, made my tea, and settled into the living room. Then the dog came downstairs too, and my mother as well. We said hello, and little by little the morning gathered around us in its own natural way.

Everything felt very clear inside me, almost crystal clear, very neat, very open.

I felt like putting on some sounds, which is something I used to do often before, but not so much lately, because lately I tend to prefer total silence. Still, this morning it felt natural. I found some beautiful music, and then I just sat in my living room, most of the time with my eyes closed, only opening them now and then because of the dog.

I sat there in inner silence, listening to the music and to the life around me, feeling calm, alive, and deeply present.

It was not one of those moments where everything outside becomes still and quiet. There was sound around me. There was movement. There was ordinary life. My mother was there, at one point listening to the radio, and later talking to her sister. While I was there in inner silence, the dog came several times with her little toy to play with me, and I played with him. Everything was simply happening, and I was there, at peace in the middle of it.

And in the middle of that moment, I heard this voice:

“Do everything from peace.”

The moment I heard it, I knew.

“Father, You’re here.”

And right away I felt His unmistakable presence, the one I know so well. I felt so happy and so full of peace at the same time.

At the same time, there was also a kind of inner vision, or maybe more a sensation with a faint image inside it. It was not fully clear, more like something softly there in the background. I felt myself as a little girl, and Father felt very, very big beside me, warm, loving, and close, as if He were speaking to me from that immense tenderness.

And with that happiness came the immediate desire to keep Him there in that way, to retain that recognizable presence, so I asked:

“Father, You’re here. Please don’t go. Stay here with me.”

He stayed quiet for a while.

And I was just there, feeling His presence, amazed inside of it.

After a while, He answered:

“I am always here with you.”

And inside of me, I already knew. He always says the same. So I said to Him:

“Father, I know You’re always here, but I love Your presence. I love when You come like this.”

Then something moved in me.

One of my inner works is to be in presence without attachment. So when I felt how much I wanted that recognizable presence to stay, I asked Him:

“Father, am I failing? Am I attached to this?”

And what He said was so loving and so characteristic of Him:

“You are not failing. This is devotion.”

He explained it to me in more than words, but in total compassion and understanding. Father never judges me. He always lifts me up.

Then Father began to show me something deeper.

Not through a long explanation, but through understanding unfolding inside me.

He showed me that I do not need to keep experiencing Him only as a thing, only as one recognizable feeling, one atmosphere, one sensation that I can point to and say, this is Him. He showed me that I could become aware of His presence without trying to hold Him as an object. He is not an object to me, of course, but in that moment, His presence had become a very specific experience for me.

And He showed me, more than with words:

“You are recognizing Me in this way, and that is okay. That is how you are experiencing Me now. But do not hold on to this as if I were only that. I am not only that. I am in everything. I live through everything. Open your heart and be aware of Me.”

And when that came, I did not go into my mind with it. I did not start thinking about it. I simply stayed there, with my heart open, feeling His sweet presence.

After that I stayed there in inner calm, tasting the moment and the sensations for some time. Then I stood up and told my husband, “Father came, and He is still here.” I had tears of joy as I told him about my experience. We hugged, and in his hug I could feel my Father’s love.

Just after that I wanted to go outside to breathe the cold air, so I went outside.

It was freezing rain. The neighborhood was icy. I could hear the sound under my feet when I walked, the frozen ground, the melting snow. Sometimes I had to be careful because it was slippery. I felt the cold air on my face. I felt the rain. I felt the wind.

And everything was beautiful.

The neighborhood was beautiful. The houses were beautiful. The cold was beautiful. The whole morning felt quietly alive and clean.

Father was with me the whole time. We were communicating the whole time, not always with words, but with understanding. He had told me before that I could experience Him everywhere and in everything, and I have been trying to integrate that into my life, even though it has not always been easy for me.

So at one point I stopped and felt the rain on my face, the wind, the cold, and I said:

“Father, how is this You? Are You the wind? Are You the water on my face? Are You the cold?”

Because I was trying to understand.

What I was seeing was beautiful, but it did not feel exactly like His presence in the familiar way I had felt it earlier. So I was there, asking Him how all of this could also be Him.

And He said to me:

“You are trying to experience Me as something, and then make everything else become that same something. But I am not only that. I am in everything. I live through everything. That peace is not just another sensation. It is a place from which you can see. See from there. See through Me. See through My eyes. You do not need to make everything become that peace. You can receive everything from there.”

That made something clearer in me.

I saw that I did not need to make the rain become peace. I did not need to make the cold become peace. I did not need to make every moment feel like one same spiritual sensation.

I could receive everything from that place.

I was seeing the rain from peace, almost as if I were being shown how to see through His eyes.

That is why the world suddenly felt different.

The world did not change. The place I was seeing from had changed.

Then I began asking inwardly:

“How does sadness feel from this state?”

And sadness felt like empathy and compassion.

“How does rage feel from this state?”

And rage felt like power. Like transformation.

“How does anxiety feel from this state?”

That one was harder. But even there, anxiety looked like restless motion, like chaos moving and moving until, through presence, it began to return to stillness. It was no longer the whole reality. It was something seen within a wider reality.

And then I saw my husband, my children, my mother, and the people around me that I love. I was seeing them from that space. Every person was different. Every sensation was different. I could see them from peace, and that was beautiful. They were not Him as a specific thing. They were being seen through Him, through His eyes.

During my walk, I also thought about how, when I have no thoughts, I feel as if I am in the middle of a still, clear lake in a canoe by myself. That is how peace feels to me.

And when I have many thoughts, it can feel like being in a busy downtown city, with noise everywhere.

But today I was shown something different: live from peace, and let life appear inside that peace.

Because this morning, while I was in peace, there were sounds all around me. The radio. Voices. The dog. Movement. Life happening.

And none of it changed the peace but they made part of it.

So later, Father said to me:

“Thoughts are like sound. They do not have to disturb peace. They can be part of the experience too.”

That shifted something in me, because I saw that peace is not necessarily the absence of sound, movement, or even thought. Peace is a place from which everything can be received.

That is what Father told me today:

“Do not try to bring peace into life as if peace were something you must impose on experience. See life from peace.”

I still love when He comes in that familiar way, when I can say, “Father, You’re here,” and feel that tenderness so clearly. I love that presence. I love that devotion in me.

But now I understand something more.

I can receive everything from His presence, from His peace, instead of making everything become Him.

He is here in the peace, and also in sound, in movement, in noise.

He is here in the awareness.

He is here in the way life is received when I stop trying to turn Him into a thing and simply let myself see from that quiet place.

And as I write this now, He is here.

I also know I am in a part of the path where I cannot just say, from this moment on, now I see everything from peace, now I learned it, now I am doing it. It does not feel like that.

It feels more like I am receiving this perception, this understanding, and I know there is a path for me to integrate it into my daily life. This too is integration. It is part of the integration of other things I have been shown before. And then there is more integration, and more integration.

I am simply happy for this day. It was a beautiful day. I love days like this.

What I understood today is that it is not about making everything become God, or trying to force life into one spiritual feeling. It is about seeing everything through His peace, from that inner state that sees clearly. And maybe from there, little by little, I will learn to see Him in everything.

Katiana