How Small I Am

https://www.youtube.com/watch?list=RDSdme_Y8V0R8&v=Sdme_Y8V0R8

Sometimes I notice how easily I try to understand God with my mind. I look for Him in concepts, ideas, definitions, in trying to explain who He is and who I am in relation to Him.

I don’t feel that this path is wrong, but I see how easy it is for me to get absorbed in it.

The more I go there, the more I realize how infinite it is. That rabbit hole has no end.

At some point, something softens.

I arrive naturally at easiness.

I come back to the here and now.

To peace.

To sensing God beyond whatever I think He is, and beyond whatever I think I am.

Beyond words, beyond effort, beyond understanding.

This is where surrender happens for me.

This is what this song is about.

Surrendering.

Acknowledging.

Gratitude.

Love.

It makes me feel how small I am, and at the same time how vast everything is.

The universe inside and the universe outside—both immense.

We are immense.

And in all of this vastness, God is everywhere.

Not as an idea, but as the very presence that allows this experience to happen at all.

This song came from that place.

From resting instead of searching.

From being instead of trying to know.

Katiana